Perfect Two

2011-11-23T21:50:00.001+08:00

静......
思......

让时间冲淡一切。
不要再往前走了，好吗？

再走，结果不会是好的

2011-11-17T20:32:00.001+08:00

Are you waiting for something?

Yes, I am :)

希望你能亲手为我们写上的段落

2011-11-16T23:02:00.001+08:00

日已久，对你的心已死。一直等待、奢望，带来的只有一次又一次的伤痛。虽然口头上说放下了，但你的每一字每一句，都告诉着我，你口是心非。

或许当初若我们有当面谈，或许事情不会如现在般严重。我们可能还能像以前般开心地做朋友。但现在？看清一切后知道，我们来自不同世界的人，能走到现在全是因为缘分。我不曾怨恨上帝制造了这份缘份，反而珍惜。你的却带给了我些许欢笑、为我的人生画上了几道彩虹。但是毕竟不同世界的人，各自也必须回到自己的宇宙，终究还是注定分离。

曾经想拉住你的手，让你回到我们身边。但是每次想伸出手的时候，你手上紧抓住的刀子，似乎不肯放下。这样的你，怎能让我们牵你的手呢？

没有要怪谁的意思，在这场游戏当中，我很清楚明白，会造成这样，谁都有责任。虽然很不希望结局会是如此，但都走到现在了，我们还能做些什么？我们之间的故事还能继续，但是是用另一个段落、另一种方式。虽然稍微接近结尾，但至少不是不明不白的结束。上一段画上的句点，你累了，我们何尝不是？但因为不要在没有解释的情况下结束这个故事，诚心希望我们还有下一段。

这一段，我要你，亲自、亲手为我们写上。请不要逃避，既然都要结束了，为何不让它完美些？面前的挡箭牌，拿开吧。无论是你的Superman还是Spiderman，只要不是当事人，都不能为你填上这空着的一段。请你面对好吗？

这段后，故事也越来越接近结尾了。大家没有遗憾地写上结局、静静地离开；你走你的路，我们走我们的。没了那一段，一切不会美好；但若有了，就算结束，也是美好的。

故事会是如何，决定在你手上。请你让我们知道，证明给我们看，你也是希望我们的故事，会是拥有没有遗憾的结局。好吗？

这一段，才能剪短纠缠的气球线，让气球慢慢地、静静的消失。

合上双眼、双手合十，祝福漂走的气球。

黑巧克力的苦

2011-10-20T13:33:00.000+08:00

黑巧克力是在这么巧克力当中我最爱的。其实常听别人说，不喜欢黑巧克力的原因是因为它真的很苦！对，黑巧克力的苦，连我也厌恶，尤其是那些特别苦的那种。但是就是因为这些苦，带出了我最最喜欢的——巧克力的原味，让黑巧克力脱颖而出。可是有些人就是不明白这苦其中的奥妙，说我其实不喜欢苦却假装自己很喜欢；说我戴着面具假装喜欢黑巧克力、扮清高。每次吃黑巧克力都在想，若能去除当中的苦，那该有多好！但是我了解，要一个人完美，是天底下最难的事。因为我懂，没有一个人是为你而活，自然的，没有一个人的性格你能完全喜欢。但是，就算不能喜欢你们的缺点，我还是像爱黑巧克力那样爱着你们；厌恶其中的苦，但这种厌恶也因为爱着巧克力原味而淡化。只可惜，你们似乎不明白，我们，没有戴着面具。

一切在心中的火开始燃烧后已太迟了。不是因你们的冷眼，不是承受不到你们的讽刺；是因为太绝望，绝望我们间的信任，其实是如此薄弱。痛得累了，虽然火已灭，但留下的灰，谁也清洗不掉。记得我说过，在友谊间的维持，信任是最重要的。但在心中那把火燃起的那一刻，信任也随着绝望，化为灰。别刺了，这是最后一次。以往的我，会为了维持信任，宁愿让自己痛、任由你们刺。但现在的我，因为信任已宣告落空，会为了保护自己，勇敢拿起刀子刺你们。你敢，你就再试一次看看。

你们就像黑巧克力一样，知道吗？:'(

巴士记 :P omg wat title is this.. xD hahaha..

2011-10-10T18:24:00.001+08:00

小时候的我，是位衣来伸手，饭来张口的败家女，昼夜都会有至少两位用人围绕在我身边。一瞬间，一眨眼，美妙如天堂的生活被不定时炸弹炸得粉身碎骨，毫不保留任何印迹。或许有，那就是瞬间市区迁别人一屁股债的丈夫的妈妈。而我，也因此陷入了在我当时被列为“最低级”的生活。那时候的我才有11岁，停学了几乎两年后，我终于又回到了课室。

这次回去的方式有点不同。没有豪华本兹，没有英俊司机哥哥，没有舒服座位，多的，只是人，拥挤和温度。就这样，每天每夜，它，成了我新的玩伴。从来没有想象过，一天几乎两小时的时间，都花在这位新朋友。

不知从何开始，我见驾乃伤了这位朋友—巴士。每日不同的司机、拥挤的人潮、争先恐后的人们、硬如石的椅子、烦心的铃响、让位给老人的年轻人、因为需要站的人们不满的表情，这一切一切艘是我最喜欢的东西。为什么？呵呵，是因为它就像我另一个母亲，教导我不曾学会的“人生大道理”。

我最喜欢，就是上天哭泣的时候。一个人坐在安静的角落，看见雨滴，滴答滴答地搭在厚厚的玻璃窗，像失去依靠的小孩般，黏着窗口爸爸，不肯放手！因为太重而慢慢滑落的雨珠，与四周的“朋友”们结为一体，速度渐渐的、慢慢的加快。突然，预祝想能独立般快速滑落，消失得无影无踪。这就像人生，只要慢慢地努力，累积经验，迟早，就能飞上云霄！忍，是成功的桥梁。别妄想一步登天，我们是需要一步一步慢慢来的。

接下来，把视线移到窗外，看见窗外为了避雨而奔跑的人们，心中不知不觉为了他们揪了起来。他们会因为淋雨而生病吗？心里突然又一阵安慰，庆幸我能在巴士上。虽然不豪华，虽然不值钱，但，看着那些没能找到地方避雨的人，至少，我还算不错。虽然没有以往富有的生活，但至少，我有个家。这样总比非洲难民幸福几百倍吧？

看见一站又一站从我身边溜过，就像时间，在我不知不觉的时候擦身而过。每当到了一站，自然而然会想起上一站发生的事情；活在现在，往往都会把思绪拉回从前，回想当时的快乐日子。每当到了一站，也自然会想以向下一站，是否是我该下车的站；活在现在，往往都要想想未来，为你的未来做出打算。这些习惯，都能在我们的未来助于一臂之力，或许不只，而是又一大帮助。

最后，该我下车了。有时候会觉得舍不得，但想离家越来越近，心就自然安心了许多。人生就是这样，一手不能同时握着两样东西。放下，虽然会痛，但永远都别忘了，前面的幸福，还在等着你向它前进。

Appendectomy

2011-10-02T19:44:00.000+08:00

Okay okay.. this is gonna be a longer post.. xD
today gor gor 出院 edi.
so 庆幸 he's feeling much more better now :DD
noe wat?
ytd horr, even walking oso seems so difficult for him.
after he went to the toilet, his face was so white n he even said
'我看不到东西！'
bt actually his eyes were opened.. :(
sho sam tong leh... DD:
ytd morning when at around 11am
mummy called me
she said gor gor de appendix gt bacteria n was in the operation room
in case u don't noe wat is apendix, here's a pic for ya :D :

after that, me n jie jie go to the hospital at around 4pm.

when we arrived, mummy gimme a cd (or dvd? i dunno.. xD)

then on the cd there write 'Appendectomy'

means horr, everything along gor's operation was recorded.. xD

wow~ im interested~~ haha, so sui... xP

n then jie jie told me,

vasectomy means cut the sperm duct

appendectomy means cut the appendix :/

so ectomy means..... cut? xD hahaha..

then i ask jie jie, 'y cut the Fallopian tube is known as ligation'

jie jie gimme this face --> =.=|||

hahahaha, noob horr?

dat night daddy n mummy pui gor in the hosp

mummy said she gt sleep

bt daddy say he oni sleep for about 2 hours.. :/

so wei da horr? xD

n then i think dao laz time i 住院

mummy was also always bside me

bring me here and there with my 点滴

so warm... :')

today gor gor come bac d.

bcz mummy n daddy nidda go to ipoh

so me n jie jie tke care of gor lo

haha, fortunately his frens came

play with him n talk with him

we study dat time he oso not so sien xD

really hope his frens everyday oso come

at least me n jie jie at sch dat time he gt someone to pui him :)

he now in quite good mood la

sometimes still can tell jokes

bt then cnt laugh xD haha

he some more say me n jie jie are gonne be his servant~ =.=

nvm lo, be servant few days

after he recover

THEN EVERYTHING THROW TO HIM xD

bwahahahahahahahahaha......!!!!~

not oni dat!

his way of walking is SHO CUTE!

like a penguin lidat! xD

sometimes saw edi feel like laughing

but sometimes saw dy feel so sam tong.. :(

sure very pain horr?

anyway, hope he faz faz recover xD

n then can be bac my wei da geh gor gor!

YAY!

MUAH MUAH I LOVE YA!~ <3

gor gor jia you!

起初的抉择，现在的绝望

2011-09-25T18:25:00.002+08:00

真的是最后一次吗？真的要离开吗？

起初就不应该来到这里了。每一次因为还抱着一点希望而留下来，结局总是不如我所盼望。每一次都努力告诉自己坚持下去，总有一天会有所改变。努力了三年，不断寻找能够让我坚持的支柱，到最后，前功尽弃。其实我不是第一次有这样的感觉，但就是不知道为什么每一次都放不下。有什么好依恋的？连自己，也想不出一个答案。

真的想放下。但，我行吗？

2011-09-20T21:05:00.004+08:00

你很凶！

FIERCE!

重来的选择

2011-09-18T17:12:00.005+08:00

我知道我不该懦弱，我知道我应该坚强，我知道我不该那么容易受别人影响，我知道我不该在意这些事情，我知道我不该把这些小事小题大做，我知道我不该胡思乱想。但为什么，我就是做不到？

因为害怕再失败，逃避了下一次。我犹豫了。如果一切能够重来，我会选择搁放在一旁不去理会。我知道这样很自私，可是至少不是爬到山腰才摔下来，而是在山脚，就阻止一切的悲剧的发生。虽然没有人说，到了山腰，或接近山顶时必定会摔下来，但我不能肯定我会否有那份坚持的心，让我有勇气不停地继续走。

今天的心情，今天的看法，是否会持续到明天，或者永远，没人知道。若等哪一天，我真的放弃了，我只能说对不起。虽然知道这样没有用，但只有这，是我能做的。我为我的懦弱说声对不起。今天的我，虽然不会让爬山者下山，而只是停在原地不动。暂停一天，再三思考该不该往前走。

考试要到了，一直这样，我会很累。

沉甸的心思,沉重的步伐,跨下的泥土如此拧脚,我挣扎的力量留下深深的足迹

坚强

2011-09-18T15:16:00.004+08:00

当别人忽略你时，不要伤心，
每个人都有自己的生活，谁都不可能一直陪你。
当你看到别人在笑，不要以为世界上只有你一个人伤心，
其实别人只是比你会掩饰。
当你无助时，你可以哭，但哭过你必须振作起来，
绝地逢生并不罕见，何况不是绝境。
当你觉得处处不入时，不要自卑，
记得你只是平凡人。

朋友

2011-09-17T10:51:00.000+08:00

朋友，不应该是有福同享，有难同当的吗？既然面对了有益的可考验，为何不要尽自己最大的能力补救呢？我相信，没有友谊是会断绝的，除非是信任消失了，要不然，无论如何都不可能划上残忍的句号。可能有些事情我不明白，我也没有强逼你告诉我们，这些，只纯粹是我个人的看法。

人家都说，“君子交绝，不出恶声” ，可是怎么看来，你好像是因为自己想放弃而责怪对方？或许武能维持这份友情不是你的错，但我也相信，对方也一定不想要有这样的结局。为什么，你就一定要把最怪在别人身上？是想安慰自己，告诉自己不是你不需负责任吗？

无论如何，若你不赞同我所言，可以无视，那只是我自己一个人的看法，我不会强逼你接受。无论如何，希望你坚强。:)

我们一起加油！好吗？xD

熟悉感

2011-09-14T19:25:00.001+08:00

熟悉的语言，熟悉的动作，熟悉的一切，有时候的却怀念。

但这一切的熟悉，我不要。因为到最后，它给的都会是残忍的句点。

在人生的路途中

我们谁都不知道到,谁会已谁相遇

那些路过的风景，只是眼前散过的一道光

转眼就不见了

放下

2011-09-13T19:36:00.000+08:00

该我下车了。有时候会觉得舍不得，但想离家越来越近，心就自然安心了许多。人生就是这样，一手是不能握着两样东西的。放下，虽然会痛，但永远都别忘记，前面的幸福，还在等着你想它前进。

为什么有时候觉得，我是在说着我自己？放下，才能允许我拥抱比这一次更美好的幸福。

真的，是这样吗？ :')

2011-09-12T20:33:00.004+08:00

可恶的讨厌鬼

走开！！

RAWR!!

:D

2011-09-12T19:57:00.006+08:00

我爱你们！！ <3

自以为

2011-09-12T19:44:00.002+08:00

曾经自以为是地认为自己有多么的重要，以为，若缺少了我，事情终究不会那么美好。后来，在必不得已的情况下，我暂时离开了。心里会因为自己的虚荣心而揪着，担心我的离开，所会造成的冷淡。

然而，在我回头望的时候，才发现他们还是能犹如往常般快乐地微笑。虽然很不希望看见自己关心的他们悲伤，但在那瞬间，我竟然祈祷他们会呼喊我的名字，奢求我能给予的欢乐。虽然最后他们没这么做，但回想起来，也会厌恶这样的自己。

在我能回去的时候，我犹豫了。停下脚步，静观他们露出那灿烂的微笑，不会嫉妒，多的，反而是欣慰。曾经因为抱得太紧，幸福的，演变成压力；欢乐的，演变成苦闷。现在到可好，暂时离开，还能减轻他们对我的依靠，我也不需感到那么辛苦。

离开时，还是会有一丝不舍，还是会经不住回头望一望。但我总算领悟，有时候放松，别绷得太紧，事情不会如你想象中那般糟。:)

P.S// 如果你很爱的伴侣告诉你，“你跑得太快，我赶不上你的脚步。但我也不想怠慢你的脚步。所以我们还是结束吧。” 你会怎么办？ :/

Trials ):

2011-09-07T17:04:00.001+08:00

Hello PEEPS! xD (Jing Hui dun b angry, i'm not doin this in purpose)
Long time din update my blog d,
cz laz time gt trials for pmr ma,
so dun blame me ok?
讲到 trials,
i VERY SHAD u noe??
the results so 差
the most disappointing subject is English
本来 horr,
i tot English can push up my purata,
哪里知道竟然 get 66% =.=||
失望到死！D:
bt then luckily i got one 92% for KH.
If not, GG.COM (xD i saw this on dunno hu's table today, hehehe)

Okay, so these are my results :
BM : 67% :((
BI : 66% D':
BC : 77% :/
GEO : 77% :/
SEJ :77% :/
KH : 92% :D
MT : 80% :((((((((
SC : 81% :|
Purata : 77.125% D:

DUI ...... T^T

oh btw, i've chged my blog template. do leave some comments about it. :D i'll appreciate.

阳光

2011-08-21T11:52:00.001+08:00

不需要再找了

因为

我是不会让你找到的

永远都不可能让你找到

快乐像太阳般消失在地平线，而眼泪也像月亮般出现了。有影子是因有光线；有伤痛才能凸现你的快乐。人生就像茶叶蛋，有裂痕才入味。其实，生命中的所有挫折与伤痛，都是人生不可或缺的香料。身边的人，意味着什么？你说，友谊消灭了，日子照样可以过。的确，在你未来的所择之路，他们连病毒般的位置都占据不了。其实他们并没有奢求些什么地位，只盼在月亮出现时，能像阳光般努力照耀着，听听月亮的倾诉、给月亮一丝安慰。至少，月亮会因此没那么暗淡。

自责，又能如何？

破碎的，再怎么愈合

抹不掉的裂痕

都会永远烙印在心口

只希望

留下的裂痕

不是成为毁坏

而能为玻璃加以点缀

WOAFIEs ROCK MY LIFE!!

2011-08-04T16:38:00.000+08:00

Halooooo!!! :D

today horr, we went for the pendaftaran program after PMR
haha, i noe la, PMR not over yet edi talk bout after PMR xD

adui.. but not our fault ma, the school arrange de

the worse thing is horr

bcz of this thingy

I HVEN START MY STUDIES N AFTER 15 DAYS

OUR TRIAL IS GONNA START T^T

hehe, the cute thing is

3 CUTE DOGGIES ARE FOLLOWING ME THIS MORNING

who is, Jeh Sin, Shi Ying n the oni male, Wei Jie

AND I HAVE ALSO A BUNCH OF KAWAII NEW PUPPIES

who is, Jing Hui, Jas Jas, Xin Yue, Ming Ser, Tuck Chien, Ren Yi, Yu Peng n Lup Heng

WELCOME TO THE BIG BIG (actually very small oni) FAMILY!

big doggies harr

muz TAKE CARE of these puppies yea!

WOAF WOAF WOAF!! xD

We cheng gong chiong dao 4 things (originally 7 T^T)

which is Petrosains, Laksamana Noodle, Gardenia and Beryl's Choc :D

actually very gek de lo..

the sunway outdoor teamwork horr

ben lai they go there very early de

bt then bcz my doggies din notice dat im at the the pertrosains counter

(they're lost without me.. xD lemme perasan yi xia harr)

so they din sign up :(

when i go thr

they all say 'full liao' O'________O'

Wei Jie and Ren Yi

bcz they wanna participate in the football or watever

they cannot go for the Beryl's Choc

actually original plan de they can go de

bt then bcz bas A full liao

so we go for bas B

then i forgt both of them gt the football

so they oso follow me to sign up

bai bai lang fei liao rm24 :(

but fortunately

they are able to sold it out :)

but then i still feel so sorry...

dun angry me harr

forgive me can?? D:

then horr after that

we gt discuss dao a little bit about OUR VERY OWN program after PMR

the plan is like this...

str8 after the last day of PMR

we're gonna go to midvalley n chiong k for the nex half day!

woah! SHIOK SANGAT!! x))

n then n then

on the friday of that particular week

we're gonna ROCK DOWN THE WHOLE SUNWAY LAGOON!!

haha, ponteng ponteng ponteng!!! HYPER HYPER HYPER!!! <3!!

after that horr, cz jing jing's gonna hav party on 31 October (her birthday xD)

so we plan to stay at her house from Saturday

woah! HIGH-GEI sangat!! sun bian can qing zhu GEGE PUNYA B'DAY leh

after that after that

THE MOST IMPORTANT THING

after gege's n jing jing's b'day

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY ON THE HOLY 6TH OF NOVEMBER!!

T^T, no planning for my birthday yet.

so actually i oso very sad de :'(

darlings darlings

prepare presents for me harr :')

if not i'll be very lonely on my birthday

ok, that's for today

Wuuuuuu!!~ i hven start revising.....

anyway

GAMBATEH TO MY DEARS AND DARLINGS!!

GAMBATEH TO ME TOO!!

Ush Ush FIGHTING!! xD

Loves,

Jia Li

HELLO, it's ME AGAIN!! xD

2011-07-29T00:19:00.000+08:00

It's such a long time since I last updated my blog. I'm currently addicted to facebook so maybe that's why i neglected my dear bloggie.. SORRY!! D:

But, there's benefit to continue blogging only by now. In these moments, less people visit my blog, maybe that's why I'll feel more comfortable to express my 'insides'. Blog, is maybe a place where I can tell what is true in my heart.

When I view back those previous posts, I figure out something which changed a lot. Friends and even ....... him.

Few months, or maybe more than a year ago, those 'friends' for me is probably something like knives, non-stop stabbing me, no matter from front or back. One of the place where I can get comfort is from him.

But now, everything is totally different. He's maybe just someone so far apart, someone I can recall and smile for the moments with him. For all the memories I had with him, :) is the only thing I can do.

But in fact, I have my dearest friends!! <3 ya! MUACKS!!

To someone : 不要太在意这些事情，日子久了，时间，就能把一切黑暗冲淡。我知道世人都肯定会在意这些事，但除了等，你还能做什么呢？当然，希望你在等的期间，是带着笑容，而不是苦瓜脸。记得，只要诚心祈祷，上天会听见您的祈求的。我真的好希望，可以看到你以前那三八的样子，不要让我失去那个人。 :D

To someone : 哈哈，暂时给我自恋一下啦，我知道或许是，也或许不是。但...... 哎呀，我也不知道要讲什么，就继续这样吧！

SMILEZ!! =)

2010-06-13T16:56:00.001+08:00

Everyone in the world..
JUMP FOR JOY!!
WeeHee~

我。。是谁？

2010-06-13T16:30:00.000+08:00

无力地躺在床上
瞳孔里反映着
白白的天花板
擦肩而过的事物
一一在我脑海里闪过

经过了数次被问
渐渐地开始变得
不了解自己
似乎 ‘自己’ 已成了陌生人

曾经试问自己
心里到底想要的是什么？
可是就算我再怎么思考
都永远找不到答案。。

茫茫的大海中
能带我上岸
的浮木支柱
又到底是哪个？

对自己对别人
渐渐地失去信心
这是我吗？
若答案是 ‘不是’
那真正的我
她去了哪里？

第一次为他流得眼泪
原因又是什么？
我
不知道。。

Killers

2010-06-05T23:49:00.001+08:00

Watch this movie wif my sis' this morning in Midvalley
It's awesome and... FANTASTIC!!

Because today is Agong's B'day happy birthday to you, it took half an hour to just buy three sits of tickets. Do u all know the circle beside the counter where we purchase the tickets? The queue took TWO rounds of it!!

Then that time hor... My sis go buy presents for dunno who, then Jia Jia go the Mc' Donald's toilet... So the poor Jia Li bought the tickets ALONE!!! Do u know how cham am I? T.T

Anyway, felt so happy today. :) And erm... sorry for my dear friends who I promised with to watch this movie together... But nvm!! We still got KARATE KID!! Right?

Happy Holiday!!

2010-06-05T01:05:00.001+08:00

HAPPY HOLIDAY EVERYONE!!
After days of exams...
After nights that we are suffering...
It finally comes to an END!!
But there is still something
wating for us
behind the happines...
THE RESULTS!!!
T.T

等待。。

2010-05-29T16:39:00.000+08:00

嘀嗒嘀嗒。。
纷纷雨滴
让一切变得
宁静温馨

我坐在寒冷的木藤椅
思索着
这世界到底是怎样的？
满脸的笑容
背后又有什么秘密？

一直以来
大家都戴着面具做人
已成了一种习惯
用这 ‘漂亮’ 的面具
对人们笑
当我们都把面具摘下
面容又会是怎样的呢？

最近发生的事
我看见了我的丑
也认识了 ‘虚伪’
曾自以为了不起的判断
原来只是自作聪明
身边的朋友
个个变得越来越陌生
曾经怀疑
他们是我认识的朋友吗？
心里说 "有"
但却面带笑容说 "不"

*我还是要告诉你：
只要你开口
我一定会告诉你

我心里的话。*

是他吗？

2010-05-11T13:09:00.000+08:00

背叛自己

笑着面对大家
即使再多的痛
再多的眼泪
只因为害怕后悔
而不敢放弃

这几次重新来过的机会
也因为你
不顾一切
像流水般飘去
只盼我们能够在一起

曾经为你流过的泪
虽然觉得不应该
但是
我重来没有一丝后悔

我一直都在你身边
但你的双眼只望着他人
没有认真地望过我一眼
以前的我
不会介意
也不曾因此而退缩
但现在的我
会吗？

为你放弃的两次机会
就算了罢
但是这一次
竟然让我疑惑
我真正喜欢的
是你吗？

前两次
我未曾考虑
便放弃了

这一次后的日子里
孤单的时候
我不再想起你
难道
他真的能伸出温柔的双手
把我从昏暗里解救出来？

真的是他吗？
他能让我放弃一切
痛苦的意念吗？
如果真的是你
我一定会珍惜
这珍贵的一次

P.S//For those who understand this, you may leave a comment at the cbox :)

I know?

2010-04-11T21:39:00.000+08:00

In a dark night I travel
No lights, no directions..
And it is a no way for me to look clearly
Before i take my every steps...

The chilly wind blows
No one is with me
Walking trough this tough road
I feel so lonely and hopeless...

It's you
Who take me out of this fear
It's you
Who let me know it is worthless

I know you want me to let go
But I'm sorry to tell you that
I haven't pick up my mind
Which way should I go?

I know you would be disappoint on me
But I will still let you know
I appreciate what you share with me
Thanks a lot
I'll try to not cry

Although I have not chosen my way
At least you give me a tiny light
Let me know where can I go
Now

I choose to stay where I am now
And wait for his next step...

2010年3月19日

2010-03-19T17:59:00.000+08:00

黑暗的天空宁静的夜里
纯白的雪花悄悄地落下
娴熟的身影躺在冰冷的雪地上
失魂的瞳孔望着无止的黑夜

“说爱我的你，
却不肯牺牲的你，
没有爱情的爱情，
消失吧！”

这样的言语刺透了脆弱的心灵
鲜血流下渗入地以白染成红
单纯幸福的爱情
从此只有血腥味

嘲讽的笑声在脑海里飘荡
他的甜言蜜语都只是笑里藏刀
哭泣
哀求
崩溃
都再也无法挽回
曾经快乐的回忆

梦中美妙的一切是短暂的
只有残酷的事实是无止的
冰冷的雪世界才能得到永恒的安宁
因只有0度C以下的地方
才能冻结我的躯体
将我变成永不改变的冰雕
至我于死地

故事的结局
他们无忧无虑地过日子
而伤心的只有我一个
这样
值得吗？

@copyrighted@ by Cally

Decide

2010-03-18T23:33:00.000+08:00

Every day...
Every minute...
Every second...

As life creeps on, u are deciding to or not to, its just whether the it is important or not important. But if u notice, every little tiny decision u make changes everything...

U choose to not study this night, u might end up failing ur subjects..
U choose to wake up late, u might spoil ur friendship forever...
U choose to lie at someone, he or she might hate u for the rest of ur life...
U choose to chat with him/her about ur secrets although u don't know him, he/she might be ur partner of ur life...
U choose to not brush ur teeth this morning, u and ur partner will break so easily...

Because we don't know what is going to happen in our future, every steps you make, every single mistake u did, ruined ur life. At last, u turned up to blame on others but not u urself.

Everything we decide in our life cannot be change, why not when u face problems, think back, i'm sure there must be something u did wrong. That's why. Accept it! Learn from it! Face it! Not to fear it! There's what i'm telling myself to do...

Wish everyone Happy Chinese New Year &Happy Valentine's Day

2010-02-12T19:10:00.000+08:00

树雨

2010-02-12T18:34:00.000+08:00

冰冷的气候
潮湿的路地
雨后的黄昏
从满了哀伤的空气
只剩下点滴的树雨
陪伴我走过
漫长的路途

悲哀的人生
只剩痛苦
没有快乐
错误的决定
成了恶梦的开始
互恨的两边
让我成了中间人

仔细想想
只要我存在
朋友就会成敌人
我在这世上
是否有存在的价值？
还是只能够害人？

想要离开的世界
从混乱变平安
来到另一个世界
让那世界
不再像以往那样快了
虽然只是平淡的憎恨
但是一切我知道
都是我的错

“我知道你还很生气，
你不需要欺骗我。
原本不想让你知道事实，
但没想到最终你还是知道了。
没想到事情会演变得那么僵，
但我只想对你说：
对不起，我爱你”

等待。。

2010-01-23T18:36:00.001+08:00

更好的成绩！！
讲英语时讲得更流利
有更好的体力
解决我的外表
有好心情继续我的小说
找到更新的，让我开心的方法！！
解决常常早去学校的烦恼
认识更多朋友
拥有一个知心的朋友
更能表现出更真的我
更懂得如何开始一个话题
有个人来医治我受伤的心
懂得珍惜身边的人，不要只缠着不属于我的朋友！！
我的白马王子出现
生活只有快乐（我知道这是不可能的）
离开只有伤心的世界

寂夜

2010-01-23T18:20:00.000+08:00

我又哭了。。

呵呵

很脆弱吧！

有时候还在想

她真的讨厌我吗？

他愿意像朋友那样

跟我说话

可是那是真的

还是虚伪的

我不知道

也不想知道

因为我知道了答案。。

虽然很想接受

但是我能不接受吗？

谁又能给我答案？

在两个团体里

都是我的最爱

但是

它们却是针锋相对的

真希望

我是哑的！

这样

就不会被夹在中间

至少这样

不认识你

也不用烦恼伤心

为什么你并没有察觉

你有这样对一个人

这样对我。。

开始在想

为什么不干脆恨你

这样大家都好过一点

反正你并不理会

我对你如何

可是

我做不到！

我没有办法恨你

再过不久就是你的生日了

在此祝你

“生日快乐！”

无名小说

2009-12-30T16:51:00.000+08:00

Chapter 0

霹零啪啷！
上天似乎生了气般对这人间大骂了一顿。风，越吹越大，没有想结束的意思。脆弱的树叶顶不了强大的力量，认输似的任由风把它们带走。所有的生物也应害怕缩回了自己的屋里。突然，雨像是找到了好玩的游戏，哗啦哗啦地滑落下来，与雷和风结合成强大的力量，一起要将可怜的树林消灭。
不久后，雷，风，和雨，终于肯放过树林，回到自己该回的地方，而树林里只剩下一片寂静。潮湿的地面、躺在地上的树叶，就像是战后遗留下来的血地和尸体。那阴深深的空气里，似乎在预告着不好的事即将发生。。。
树林中的丘比特堂里，站着一位贤淑的母亲，手里拖着可爱的小女孩。哀伤的瞳孔里，藏着一丝不舍的心情。
“ 晓逸啊”母亲用着慈祥的口气对小孩说。
“ 嗯? ”
“ 妈妈跟你说哦，这里，就是爱神丘比特堂。以后有什么事情要跟妈妈说，就可以来这里哦，而且哓逸长大后也会被爱神保佑的。”
“ 我以后不能直接与妈妈说话嘛? ”
“ 不行。” 坚决了许久，母亲终于说出了这句话。
“ 为什么？”
“ 因为。。因为这样跟妈妈说话比较好玩嘛！ ”
“ 是吗？”
“ 嗯！”
“ 好耶！”
母亲望着那单纯的双眼，虽然答应了自己的丈夫，可是还是忍不住往下蹲，不停地哭着。
“ 妈妈怎么啦？好啦，妈妈别哭，晓逸一定会乖的。妈妈也要乖，不哭了不哭了。”小女孩不解地拥着小手拍着母亲的背，不停地安慰母亲。
“ 好啦晓逸，妈妈要走啰！”
“ 去哪里？”
“ 去找你哥哥。你要乖乖跟着阿姨，要听话哦。”
“ 哦。”
“ 姐，你可以进来了。”
后门，一位与那母亲年龄差不多的妇女走了进来。
“ 妹，你确定要去吗？”
“ 没办法了，一定要试试。我们早了他那么多年，也不差这一次。”
“ 可是对方不会对你们怎样吧？听说是吴氏的人在搞的鬼。”
“ 不知道。不过就算如此，只要能找到俊逸，我们都要去。”
“ 那晓逸怎么办？兆氏怎么办”
“ 可以先让你们保管吗？还有如果。。我们会不来了，不要轻易透露晓逸的身份。”
“ 好。那么你们一定要小心。”
“ 嗯。”
母亲将小女孩交给她的姐姐后便跑出后门，上了她丈夫的车，车也因此快速地驶去，渐渐地消失在晓逸的眼前。
虽然大家都很担心那对夫妇，但没想到他们这一去，晓逸就注定成了孤儿。

一个人。。我希望。。

2009-11-19T02:46:00.000+08:00

曾经想过
友情来了总有一天会离去。。

以前的我
是先把这份友情淡忘的人（其实也不清楚以往的朋友们又没有忘记了）
自然地也不曾体会过被抛弃的感觉

可是。。。
曾经那么胆小怕事的我
能过着那么平凡那么清淡的生活
到了中学终于鼓起勇气想和更多人做朋友
想拥有一个刻骨铭心的友情
得来的结果。。
却是那么的残酷。。。

虽然我们曾是小学同班同学
可是有时候我比较怀念
以往平淡的友情
虽然以往的你
没有真正把我当‘好’朋友
只是把我当一个路过只会打招呼的‘认识的人’
可是那
总比你现在对我那
不屑厌恶的眼神
好上几万倍
现在的你似乎
只把我当空气不
应该是讨人厌的脏老鼠吧。。
有时候真得很希望你只把我当空气
呵呵很可笑吧！

其实已经很久很久
想要问你‘你是不是那么讨厌我？’
可是就是没有这份勇气
去面对
自己不想要的答案。。

昨天收到那封信心里有点雀跃
‘总算没像小学那样被忽视’
虽然那不是你发送的
可是后来在某名单里
竟然没有我的名字。。
应该是说本来有可是后来没有
心里在想
你们真的不相信我了
或者可说是
你们真的不把我当一回事了。。
我对这份友情
更是不能接受了虽然我很想挽回
我之前的过错
‘为什么要那么迟才发现我已经走错很多步了？’

今天睡不着觉
爬起来打开窗帘
看着黑暗的夜景不小心
触碰到了冰冷的玻璃窗
心莫名的伤心了起来
泪也莫名地在眼角滚动
真的好想就这样大哭一场呢
可是我不是很坚强的吗？
怎么可以流泪呢？
结果就跑下楼上网了。。

有时候
我心里面正在想
要用什么台词来挽回这份友情
可是想来想去
却不能派上用场
因为
我还是没有足够的勇气
去告诉你‘对不起’

今年眼看就要过去了
虽然逃避不是解决问题的好方法
可是我还是选择了逃避
逃避我的过错
逃避你看我的眼神
逃避你把我当脏老鼠时我的感受是否痛苦
逃避你。。
我只希望一切
都会在明年结束。。

~Wash You Hands Too~

2009-08-29T21:04:00.000+08:00

Wow! Found an amazing video!!
Follow the steps ya!!
~Wash Your body, wash your hands too~

Misunderstandings

2009-08-09T16:47:00.000+08:00

There's a lot of misunderstanding in our daily life. Some make you happy but some do not... Some are important but some are not... Some tell you something but some do not... Why all of us have such useless misunderstandings? Do they help us? If not, then why would they exist?

Misunderstanding happens when you are over caring of someone or something or someone is over caring of you. Or maybe you are too much stress until you are always not clear about what you should do. And that makes your mind makes the wrong decision and that causes misunderstanding.

I have a friend. She is a girl. I'm not sure whether she hates me or not. Sometimes she shouts out my name and talks to me happily... and sometimes she use that kind of eyes to look at me when she talks to me. Am I too stupid to not know the truth? Or am I over caring of my friendship problems?

Evertime when she is with another friend, talking and laughing with them, I feel something uncomfortable in my heart. I don't know what is it and I don't know why are these things happening in me. Your laughing face is so nice but I feel hurt when it is not belong to me. I know I'm so selfish to say like that but can you just give a little more smiling face for me...

I don't know when and why this kind of problem happens within you and me. But the only thing I want to know is the truth of this problem. Is it a misunderstanding or is it real that you hate me? If you really hate me, then can you tell me the reason? If it really is a misunderstanding, then why do you treat me like this?

I only want to know the answer...

2009-06-25T23:10:00.000+08:00

Well, yesterday I'm so happy!!
"Ring ring!!"
Guest who phoned to me!
It's Wei Chi!!!
Wow!
Such a long time didn't talk to her..
And also Xiu Ling and Yu Qing
Although we talked about common stuff,
I'm so touch to hear your sound.
Miss you all very much..
I miss the moment when we're together...
Are all of you all right?
Are you all still remember me?
I always ask myself...
Sorry Xiu Ling for not wishing you 'Happy Birthday' when it's your birthday..
And not calling you all for such a long time...
I miss all of you!

Glitter Graphics Maker & MySpace Layouts

First tagged by 姐姐

2009-06-25T21:47:00.000+08:00

1. Who are you?

Cally Mok Jia Li

(Don't call me 'Collie' or 'Jelly')

2. Are we friends?

No way! We are SISTA!!!

3. When and how did we meet?

When I first came out from our mama's stomach!!

She's a cute baby!!

4. Did you like me at all?

I hate you very very very much!!

"爱得越深恨得越深"

5. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.

Jie Jie, JJ or Je Je.

Coz you're my beloved SISTA!!

6. Descirbe me in one word.

CUTE Jie Jie.

7. What was your first impression?

A cute baby.

8. Do you still think that way about me now?

Nope! You are not a baby anymore...

9. What reminds you of me?

I lurb you..

Yay!!

10. If you could give me anything what would it be?

My love (but not all)

Wakakaka!!

11. How well do you know me?

Very very well (but not 100%)

12. When's the last time you saw me?

Now!! Sitting on the sofa watching TV..

13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

Erm...let me think...

.............................

...................

14. Are you going to post this in your notes and see what I say about you?

Yuppie!!

15. What is my best attribute?

Love me always...

Especially when you have a boyfriend..

My Taggy-ies

1. Alana Koong

2. Cherry Lee

3. Harn Hwei

4. Nicole

5. Wen Shean

6. Xiu Ling

7. Yu Qing

Amazing Illusions

2009-06-06T12:16:00.000+08:00

Is this possible?

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Are the puple lines straight or bend?

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Do you see grey areas in between the squares?

Now where did they came from?

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If you take a look at the following picture , let me tell you .... it is not animated. Your eyes are making it move. To test this, stare at one spot for a couple seconds and everything will stop moving. Or loo k at the black center of each circle and it will stop moving. But move your eyes to the next black center and the previous will move after you take your eyes away from it.... Weird

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Poems

2009-06-05T23:08:00.000+08:00

These are the poems that I wrote when I 'visit' Bukit Gasing...
Well, they're actually not some kind of poems that are very 'geng' (there are no rhymes T.T, I'm not that clever...)

===Poem 1 ===
Animals O animals,
where had U went to?
I saw signboards about spiders,
but where are U?

I heard noises and footsteps,
but they are not animals'.
Its ours,
human's..

Shhh.......

===Poem 2===
The trees are green,
and the ground is brown.
But time went on,
the trees became brown,
and the ground became green...

This is us!
This is our act!
Why should we be like that!?

Sienzzz...

2009-06-05T14:11:00.000+08:00

Well, don't fell like blogging but anyway I will post something about the poem I wrote when I went to Bukit Gasing and choir competition and choir festival afterwards when I'm bersemangat!!

Have Some JOKES!!

2009-05-23T16:59:00.001+08:00

And Smile Always!

What's your Japanese name?

2009-05-23T16:44:00.000+08:00

Fill your name in Japanese (refer to table below) and see how crazy it looks like....have fun!

A - ka
B - tu
C - mi
D - te
E - ku
F -lu
G - ji
H - ri
I - ki
J - zu
K - me
L -a
M - rin
N - to
O -mo
P -no
Q - ke
R - shi
S - ari
T -chi
U - do
V - ru
W -mei
X -a
Y - fu
Z - zi

Choir!!

2009-05-22T23:54:00.000+08:00

Yeah!!

I finally bought my choir badge and choir T-shirt!!

This is the badge...

And this is my choir T-shirt...

Front : Back :

When I arived at my house today after school, I continued reading my novel, “1王9帅12宫”and I finally finished it!!

These are the books...
Episode 1 and 2 :

And these are the bookmarks I used...
Episode 1 and 2 (so nice!!) :

Willing to have episode 3 & 4 and I'll finally finshed the whole story!!! Hooray!!

~Oneafiveians~ <3

2009-05-22T19:46:00.000+08:00

1A5 has a BLOG!!!

Wow, feel very shocked when Nicole told me that she had created a blog for 'Oneafiveians'!!

It happens like this..
Nicole told me to sign on a piece of green paper and write something beside my signature (I didn't write anything, can't think of anything to write...T.T), and then I ask:
“你们做这个来做什么？”
“我create了一个blog，我想把这个放在header”
Huh!!! Nicole had created a blog for 'Oneafiveians'.

Visit this COOL BLOG at :
a) My links >> 1A5 muacks<3
b) http://chs-1a5-09.blogspot.com/

I'm Sick!!

2009-05-16T23:15:00.000+08:00

Thursday!! What a bad day!!

When I woke up, I found that I'm dizzy (actually every morning when I wake up I'm dizzy), then my jie jie checked my temperature. After that she said "O, ni fa shao liao.." (ToT), I'm sick! I'm sick! I'm sick! This is the first time I'm sick in this year!!!

And these are my boring schedule...

0800-0830>>struggling to wake up (coz I'm dizzy)
0830-0840>>found out that I'm sick/can't believe I'm sick
0840-0900>>SLEEP (jie jie go tuition only)
0900-1200>>continue SLEEPING
1200-1210>>can't believe mom didn't wake me up (I thought I'm going to school)
1210-1220>>come down and sit on a sofa
1220-1240>>drink Vitamin C water
1240-1300>>have my lunch/ge ge come back from school
1300-1430>>read books
1430-1830>>SLEEPZzzzz
1830-2000>>wake up/watch TV/jie jie come back
...
...

After calling my friend, Steffie, to ask for the homework on that day, I have to do Science Journal 1 (1 paper), Science Journal 2 (Activity 4.3), Science Exercise (5 paper), Moral (Nilai 18-20) and the worst thing is Meniti Kaca. I have to do saspens and konflik yang dialami oleh watak-watak (Thursday homework) and I haven't finish binaan plot (homework b4 Thursday) and I've to pass up tomorrow although its a Teacher's Day (WHAT THE!!) if you don't have SPECIAL reason (actually I have special reason but I'm not sure whether teacher will accept or not).

Cik Nurul KUDA??

2009-05-14T13:10:00.000+08:00

On Monday, we finally had our new Sejarah teacher! She is Cik Nurul Huda (Well she looks a bit like a kuda (hehehe), and also a rabbit!!(hahaha).), so I call her Cik Nurul KUDA(muahahahaha...laughing like mad..)

When she first come in to our class(1A5 roxx), she said something about herself bla bla bla..., and then she said "learning is FUN" (everyone laughed...muahahahaha!). Because most of my classmates prefer to play games than learning, so she divided us into 3 groups (actually we made our decision ourselves). When I had my own group, one of my friends, Sofeanna kept saying "learning is fun, learning is fun" (Did 'learning is fun' became our 1A5 slogan!!..muahahaha).

Then, because when teacher asked which one is in which group but my group didn't even put up our hands, so we became the 观众 group (haha..no need to play). Now the game starts, teacher asked us some questions to answer...

Q1-Apakah zaman yang pernah Malaysia lalui? (something like that)
Ans-Zaman Paleolitik, Zaman Neolitik and Zaman Logam. (plss la.. 2nd exam won't hav this kind of question la!)
Q2-Siapakah pengasas Melaka?
Ans-Parameswara. (OMG! SO EASY!!)
Q3-Apakah nama lain untuk Melaka?
Ans-Amalaka, Mulaqah and Malakat. (Well, 2nd exam also won't hav this kind of question, but actually I nearly forget, fortunately I'm only an audience...muahahaha)
Q4-Bla Bla Bla...
Q5-Forgotten hehe..
.....

Ring!!!...FINALLY!! "Terima kasih Puan...(everyone looked at her name tag) Nurul Huda"
Then she said, "Cik!" (lll_-)

And thats Monday.

On the next day, she can finish Bab 6 in just less than 30 minutes (waa, so pro). When I'm looking on my buku nota to add some notes onto it about Bab 6.3, I suddenly heard "Jadi kesimpulannya ialah bla bla bla...". OMG!! She had finished the whole bab when I'm still in Bab 6.3!! (actually she was just reading through the textbook without explaning and she won't care although someone slept in the classroom).

Haha, now is the time to say something bad about her.
When she was doing some notes for us to copy after she finished the textbook reading, she still need to refer to the textbook and find the answer. And when she stopped for a while to look at her book, I can answer what she was looking for without refering to my textbook (muahahahaha...I'm cleverer than her).

Actually I liked Puan Sugumarie more than the Cik Kuda because Puan Sugumarie can teach very very well (I mean really really well), so I WANT HER TO COME BACK!! And the student sitting behine me kept saying "我很想念Puan Sugumarie la!!"

To Puan Sugumarie

2009-05-08T03:07:00.000+08:00

Puan Sugumarie,
You are the best Sejarah teacher and the greatest teacher in our class. You taught Sejarah very well. I will always remember you although you are teaching in the morning session after this week. I'm proud to be your wakil and that's the greatest jawatan I've been. I hope that you will come back to teach us. Actually I'm afraid of who is the next Sejarah teacher and I am the one who gonna be his/her wakil. If he/she is not a good teacher like you, or he/she is very fierce, I think I'll think of you when the teacher scold us. Anyway, I hope you can teach well in the morning session and the students you teach will love you like what I did.

I Love You and I'll Miss You

I Have Created a New Blog

2009-05-07T22:52:00.000+08:00

I HAVE CREATED A NEW BLOG!!Okay, actually this is not the 1st blog I have because I don't really like that blog. Hope I can make this blog better...

Let's talk about today...
In the morning, I woke up at 8.30am. OMG!!! My English tuition starts at 9.00am!! At first I took decision to not go for it because I'm tired, I had flu, fever and I'm dizzy when I woke up. But suddenly... ~DING DONG~ WHAT??!!! My aunt had arrived(she fetches me and my jie jie to the teacher's house) and I'm still in my pyjamas on my bed!! "Li Li!! Je Je!!">>my maid had called...I quickly jumped up from my bed and brushed my teeth, washed my face, changed into my uniform...within 10 minutes(what a new record!)!!Then I rush downstairs and drink Milo. Oh ya! I haven't pack my bag!! Then, I packed my bag in great speed and grabbed my tuition books. After that, 出发!

15 minutes later, in Mrs. Saw's(my tuition teacher)house...
Wait! I've forgotten to bring something...I've forgotten to bring my Essential Grammar Workbook and I need to pass it up to Mrs. Saw today!! OMG!!! I thought she would scold me but she didn't! Miracle!!(maybe her mood was good??)Suddenly, "take out ur literature book, Jia Li." Oh ya!! I also fogotten to bring my literature book! How am I gonna talk to her?! Then I just said " teacher, I didn't bring..." "What?! Then what do you bring?" "Only the workbooks." T.T she must be scolding me like mad! But she said " Nevermind then, we'll do summary and some multiple choice questions then." Miracles! (again) Phew... . So in my tuition, every thing is just SUMMARY SUMmary summary and multiple choice questions.