一个人。。我希望。。

曾经想过
友情 来了 总有一天会离去。。

以前的我
是先把这份友情 淡忘的人（其实也不清楚以往的朋友们又没有忘记了）
自然地 也不曾体会过被抛弃的感觉

可是。。。
曾经那么胆小怕事的我
能过着 那么平凡 那么清淡 的生活
到了中学 终于鼓起勇气 想和更多人做朋友
想拥有一个刻骨铭心的 友情
得来的结果。。
却是那么的残酷 。。。

虽然我们 曾是小学同班同学
可是有时候 我比较怀念
以往平淡的友情
虽然以往的你
没有真正把我当‘好’朋友
只是把我当一个路过只会打招呼的‘认识的人’
可是 那
总比你现在对我那
不屑 厌恶的眼神
好上几万倍
现在的你 似乎
只把我当空气 不
应该是讨人厌的脏老鼠吧。。
有时候 真得很希望你只把我当空气
呵呵 很可笑吧！

其实已经很久 很久
想要问你‘你是不是那么讨厌我？’
可是 就是没有这份勇气
去面对
自己不想要的答案。。

昨天收到那封信 心里有点雀跃
‘总算没像小学那样被忽视’
虽然那不是 你发送的
可是后来 在某名单里
竟然没有我的名字。。
应该是说本来有 可是后来没有
心里在想
你们真的 不相信我了
或者可说是
你们真的 不把我当一回事了。。
我 对这份友情
更是不能接受了 虽然我很想挽回
我之前的过错
‘为什么要那么迟才发现我已经走错很多步了？’

今天睡不着觉
爬起来 打开窗帘
看着黑暗的夜景 不小心
触碰到了 冰冷的玻璃窗
心 莫名的伤心了起来
泪 也莫名地在眼角滚动
真的好想就这样大哭一场呢
可是我不是很坚强的吗？
怎么可以流泪呢？
结果就跑下楼上网了。。

有时候
我心里面正在想
要用什么台词来挽回这份友情
可是想来想去
却不能派上用场
因为
我还是没有 足够的勇气
去告诉你‘对不起’

今年 眼看就要过去了
虽然 逃避不是解决问题的好方法
可是我还是选择了逃避
逃避我的过错
逃避你看我的眼神
逃避你把我当脏老鼠时 我的感受是否痛苦
逃避你。。
我只希望 一切
都会在明年结束。。

~Wash You Hands Too~

Wow! Found an amazing video!!
Follow the steps ya!!
~Wash Your body, wash your hands too~

Misunderstandings

There's a lot of misunderstanding in our daily life. Some make you happy but some do not... Some are important but some are not... Some tell you something but some do not... Why all of us have such useless misunderstandings? Do they help us? If not, then why would they exist?

Misunderstanding happens when you are over caring of someone or something or someone is over caring of you. Or maybe you are too much stress until you are always not clear about what you should do. And that makes your mind makes the wrong decision and that causes misunderstanding.



I have a friend. She is a girl. I'm not sure whether she hates me or not. Sometimes she shouts out my name and talks to me happily... and sometimes she use that kind of eyes to look at me when she talks to me. Am I too stupid to not know the truth? Or am I over caring of my friendship problems?

Evertime when she is with another friend, talking and laughing with them, I feel something uncomfortable in my heart. I don't know what is it and I don't know why are these things happening in me. Your laughing face is so nice but I feel hurt when it is not belong to me. I know I'm so selfish to say like that but can you just give a little more smiling face for me...

I don't know when and why this kind of problem happens within you and me. But the only thing I want to know is the truth of this problem. Is it a misunderstanding or is it real that you hate me? If you really hate me, then can you tell me the reason? If it really is a misunderstanding, then why do you treat me like this?

I only want to know the answer...

Well, yesterday I'm so happy!!
"Ring ring!!"
Guest who phoned to me!
It's Wei Chi!!!
Wow!
Such a long time didn't talk to her..
And also Xiu Ling and Yu Qing
Although we talked about common stuff,
I'm so touch to hear your sound.
Miss you all very much..
I miss the moment when we're together...
Are all of you all right?
Are you all still remember me?
I always ask myself...
Sorry Xiu Ling for not wishing you 'Happy Birthday' when it's your birthday..
And not calling you all for such a long time...
I miss all of you!

Glitter Graphics Maker & MySpace Layouts

First tagged by 姐姐

1. Who are you?

Cally Mok Jia Li

(Don't call me 'Collie' or 'Jelly')

2. Are we friends?

No way! We are SISTA!!!

3. When and how did we meet?

When I first came out from our mama's stomach!!

She's a cute baby!!

4. Did you like me at all?

I hate you very very very much!!

"爱得越深恨得越深"

5. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.

Jie Jie, JJ or Je Je.

Coz you're my beloved SISTA!!

6. Descirbe me in one word.

CUTE Jie Jie.

7. What was your first impression?

A cute baby.

8. Do you still think that way about me now?

Nope! You are not a baby anymore...

9. What reminds you of me?

I lurb you..

Yay!!

10. If you could give me anything what would it be?

My love (but not all)

Wakakaka!!

11. How well do you know me?

Very very well (but not 100%)

12. When's the last time you saw me?

Now!! Sitting on the sofa watching TV..

13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

Erm...let me think...

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14. Are you going to post this in your notes and see what I say about you?

Yuppie!!

15. What is my best attribute?

Love me always...

Especially when you have a boyfriend..

My Taggy-ies

1. Alana Koong

2. Cherry Lee

3. Harn Hwei

4. Nicole

5. Wen Shean

6. Xiu Ling

7. Yu Qing

Amazing Illusions

Is this possible?

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Are the puple lines straight or bend?

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Do you see grey areas in between the squares?

Now where did they came from?

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If you take a look at the following picture , let me tell you .... it is not animated. Your eyes are making it move. To test this, stare at one spot for a couple seconds and everything will stop moving. Or loo k at the black center of each circle and it will stop moving. But move your eyes to the next black center and the previous will move after you take your eyes away from it.... Weird

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Poems

These are the poems that I wrote when I 'visit' Bukit Gasing...
Well, they're actually not some kind of poems that are very 'geng' (there are no rhymes T.T, I'm not that clever...)

===Poem 1 ===
Animals O animals,
where had U went to?
I saw signboards about spiders,
but where are U?

I heard noises and footsteps,
but they are not animals'.
Its ours,
human's..

Shhh.......

===Poem 2===
The trees are green,
and the ground is brown.
But time went on,
the trees became brown,
and the ground became green...

This is us!
This is our act!
Why should we be like that!?